Braingate, Day Six (I'm not just "nuts"!)

Don't remember falling asleep in my bed last night, but I do remember going home. I woke up feeling refreshed, but disoriented.

Symptoms started to return shortly after I woke up. I lost my balance at one point and fell off the bed... Thankfully, I managed to catch myself and push myself back before I hit the floor. I only managed to whack my less-bad foot. No harm done, as far as I'm aware.

That's never happened to me before. It feels like I'm losing control of my own body.

+Rachel drove me to the emergency entrance at MGH, where I'm now being checked in. I hope to get an actual diagnosis here. Hopefully I'll be able to get the fMRI here that I've been seeking since I don't remember when. My intuition tells me that it's crucial that I do.

So far, the atmosphere in the building is very reassuring. It seems like everyone we've come across so far has been courteous, competent, and motivated to be here--a stark contrast to the experience of Tufts.

The fear I was feeling at home before we left is starting to subside. I feel like I'm finally where I need to be.

2:50 PM

The pressure and tingling behind my eyes are back with a vengeance.

3:40 PM

The pressure has spread down the right side of my head, and I just felt a spark of pain behind my forehead, on the right side.

After a discussion with the Attending Doctor in the emergency department here, I am not going to request procedures or try to guess what's wrong with me anymore. I have full faith in their abilities here. I'll give them as full of a medical history as I can and as complete of a description of my symptoms as possible. I am comforted in the knowledge that MGH is most certainly populated with people much more intelligent and knowledgeable than I. The conclusions are now theirs to reach.

Despite the progression of my symptoms again, I feel... comforted. I think I'll be alright now. It's only a matter of time, something of which I have no intrinsic awareness in the first place.

6:20 PM

It feels like pressure is starting to build in my right ear.

7:50 PM

Unreal... MGH gave me a saline solution IV drip, Reglan, and magnesium. I feel mostly fine now. Neither LMH nor Tufts gave me an IV drip the entire time I was there. I'm beside myself right now.

I don't know what to make of this.

I need to schedule an outpatient MRI, myself.

I'm just going to go to MGH for all of my medical needs from now on. I hope that the MGH Primary Care wait list isn't too long...

I feel like I'm closer to some real answers, finally.

Three cheers for competency and attentiveness!

Editorial note (09/14/2016) I was discharged to home after my symptoms improved.